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Well it's in..just a spasm..wow was that Dr. at the clinic off.. Wayne went to his Dr's appointment and the Dr. won't help. Wayne got nasty with her because he is in pain and they aren't doing anything! She wanted to do some more blood tests and he told her flat out no she wasn't looking in the right place. So yes back to ground zero so to speak. he does now have an appointment with a neurologist. It's not until April. I have no idea how to help him until then. Well there isn't anything I can do..except maybe bug the hell out of the Dr's. I have decided there just aren't any good Dr's here. I do like my kid peds Dr at least..lord knows hes like family it seems. I feel like i'm drowning. I can only describe this by saying Utah..I had such an awful life in Utah as a teen. But that's another whole story. I don't think I ever had any good teen years. Well I'm off to do something in my kitchen. Bailey's at school and I have a whole hour left to myself.

The end?

I think this may be my last blog. I think this kind of started out with me trying to help myself unload and let my friends know what's going on with me..I guess it's still that way right? well here is this weeks drama-Wayne has had very bad headaches for a very long time. years. Monday he just couldn't take it anymore and went to a quick care clinic. Let me step back for just a second-he has seen many many Dr's about this. All have said something along the same line as "oh it's high blood pressure" Or "oh you need a hobby" No these are not from to much stress or high blood pressure. Granted he does have lots of both but they are not the cause. So back to the clinic story-so he goes after work not wanting to spend anymore money on Dr's but he just plain out can't deal with the pain anymore-He tells the Dr. that those things above are what is always said and no one is helping him and he just can't take it anymore. Every morning he has to get up is a horrible thing. He is just ready to give up and die. He doesn't sleep add back, neck and head pain and it makes for a lousy life. The Dr. listened he actually listened!! He asked Wayne the questions that all Dr's ask and then asked about his hands. Again something all Dr's ask. But he listened and heard what Wayne was saying! Yes his hands always go numb! The Dr. said that just isn't right. No one's hands just go numb. Other Dr's would say oh it's how you rest your hands while driveing..ummm..wrong..This was a clue. The Dr had xrays done. NO DR. HAS DONE THIS! Here's the kind of funny part-I did not go with Wayne because of the kids-I see all the time at the Dr's office a member of the gym that I always have contact with. We text all the time and I watch her sweet babies at the gym. But I see her all the time at the Dr office. It's kind of embarrassing really. Anyway she is a xray tech. So kind of jokingly I texted her and asked if she was working. the answer-yup-so I said see my husband? (the clinic is across from the Dr's office and she does xrays for the clinic and everywhere and is why I see her all over the place because well..we visit so many Dr's) I THOUGHT I was being funny..little did I know that she had actually already been there and xrayed him. Or Wayne walked across the parking lot to her office..any which way she had seen him and I didn't know that. I said (still texting) sad huh? Meaning it's sad that one of us is at the Dr's AGAIN. I think that's when she was like uhh Star have you talked to Wayne yet? Just then Wayne called. Bad news. like there's any other kind. They found a chip out of his neck bone. most likely the cause. It's not good. We will find out more this afternoon. This could mean so many things. What all I am not sure but I am afraid to say what is floating around in my head. As my gym friend says and Wayne-don't freak out yet. well..to late. I already have Wayne in my head on disability and us living in the shit hole we've been living in for 3 years forever and everyone being cranky and sick because the place is full of mold..Bailey's breathing treatments have gone from 1 maybe 2 a week to up to 4 a day. It's all about the $$. I think by the time we are done with this year my guess is our medical debt will be around 10g's..shit..and still all unhealthy..and no home to call our own. So forgive me for never sounding happy. I just can't see the bright side of things anymore. Oh and what caused the chip? An old injury of some sort. It may have happened one night when he got drunk (like wayyyyyyyy long before we even met) and hurt himself and hardly remembered it or the bad dive he did in a swimming pool or maybe even when he got shocked changing a light and fell off the ladder and landed horrible. Something from the past is doing more damage now and we are just starting to find out what all the issues are. He goes to the Dr. in a hour and a half. If you guys want me to blog it let me know..

I don't know if this is worth keeping going. But here I am typing away at the moment..Big changes are taking place this year for us. I am losing weight. 8.5 pds so far. I am working with a friend who is crazy into health and fitness and is getting ready to do a weight lifting championship in Vegas. Hence why I need everybody to buy bows or blankets so I can earn my way with her! I am very excited to get the chance to go see a bunch of beautiful women who have worked on there bodies so hard...some a little to hard..but non the less I really want to go! I am working on changing my eating habits BIG time..it sucks..but I am tired of being fat and don't want to look like Wayne's mom who is HUGE...sad I know..I don't want to look like my mother either but at least shes not super fat! So I am changing my bad eating habits. Wayne is getting on board as well. He has gone to a dietitian..for him it's not going to well yet. I have a way strict diet Wayne just needs to learn to eat well and when to eat it.
We will be moving this year. As soon as we have around $5,500 saved. It doesn't feel like we will ever get there. We had half that saved two months ago and now it's gone. Christmas and life just sucked it away. Now that Christmas is out of the way we will be tighten the purse strings so to speak and counting our pennies. Wayne is the big spender so I will have to slap his hands allot.
Wayne is trying to quit chewing so I do give him credit for that. That will save us at least $120 a month plus!
Bailey's health needs to improve still. The poor things allergies are just awful and we blame this house for a big part of that. She is doing breathing treatments allot right now. We just moved her room around to get her bed away from the heat vent and window. Once we move I think her issues will let up. She will be going to an allergist next month. Not much is going on with Killian. He is growing! He gaining weight. Family members want us to think about the growth hormones for him. Yes he is small and I have talked to his Dr. already and at this point it is not a consideration. I don't know that I comfortable with it anyway. Oh he is allergic to milk again! OK so theres more going on with Killian then I thought. At least this milk thing is the milk and not the protein. Milk proteins are much harder to avoid. Poor Killian has pizza everyday at school. Not anymore! So tell me if this is worth keeping going.

How many times again?

I can't say I'm one of those highly cheerful people I know from work. Theres two kind-happy and deal with things (or appear to)well or the other-grumpy, complains, and doesn't deal with anything well at all..yup that's me. Every now and again I can be that first person but I find it very hard. Today is one of those days it is just a pipe dream. This week I had Bailey tested for mold. We found out that she has a high allergy to it. I now have two Dr's saying what we already know and are trying to do-move-. So far we haven't found nothing. This house is slowly killing us. That's what it feels like. In the 3 years we have been here each month gets worse and now I have more proof of that. It feels so awful to be so stuck. I want to try to rent something else and just give up on finding a house to buy. Everything feels so hopeless right now. Part of the other reason I feel so down is that Wayne is always gone working right now. This is the busy season for Wayne and we don't see him very often. When we do he sleeps nearly the whole time which is frustrating. He needs all the sleep he can get and I need help doing things I can't do and need him to do for me. It sucks so bad. I have been lucky in that Wayne's sister and husband have been able to help me for somethings. We would still be freezing had they not come over and yanked out the issue. I hate this house..I have been so down I have thought about taking my kids and going to stay with Vi..that's how bad things are. Mold, housing, health, lack of a partner. God it feels just like being a single mom with no benefits. Yup that's in there too, no sex. This time of year blows. I miss my kitty and hate that I always expect to see her still on my bed at night. I have even reached out to pet her. I hate that. I will never own another cat. Killian said he's getting a kitten for Christmas. I don't think so! So OK let me think of one good thing...hmmmm....no nothins comin to mind....hmmmm. OK I'll make something up..I have a roof over my head. I think that's kinda funny. It's a moldy roof but it's a roof non the less. A roof that is making us all sick but it's better then the homeless shelter...not really what I was lookin for but that's all I got in me...I'm going to bed...and have an awful night cause I can't take anything with Wayne gone and need something to help me sleep...well at least I have a bed to sleep in..right?

forgot

I was sitting on the couch and thought about this and I know that you were wondering about it-What does the surgery mean for Wayne's sleep apnea? Are we in the clear? At this time the answer is leaning towards no. We are at this moment in the same boat we were before. Maybe things are a hair bit better. Wayne is back out on the couch snoring away when he does fall asleep. He never has energy (neither do I really) because he never feels well because he never sleeps. All the same crap as before. We just keep hopping he will wake up each day. We had higher hopes about this surgery but we can't get to out of shape about it, there is still lots of healing time.
We are putting off looking for a home alittle longer in case I haven't mentioned that. Our real state agents 20yr old son passed away about 3 weeks ago. We are waiting for her to feel up to doing what she loves again and by giving her the much needed mourning time she needs-allows us to save more money. very sad :( life should improve right??

It never ends does it?

Wayne's surgery went well. It has been a very painful healing proccess for him unfortunitly. He said yesterday it hasn't seemed worth it because his nose it all plugged again where as of a few days ago after having the stuffing and stints taken out he was able to breathe better. He still has weeks of healing and all the crusts to come out. He still snores and has gotten to sleep in bed three times. Thats more then he has in months. I am not sure I can handle it. I was up early partly because of him and partly because killian thinks he should get up early on the weekends to play. Tomarrow he will sleep in. Man I hate that I wish the kid would just sleep in! I have put Bailey in preschool earlier then I thought I could. I had givin up her spot in the preK class because we didn't think we could afford her going what so ever. Then one day Wayne told me I could. She is unfortuntily in just the preschool class. She will still learn in this class it's just a day shorter and not with her classmates from last year. But she is out of my hair two times a week and likes going to see her friends as she tells me. I have no trouble this year with tears or anything. She goes in and up stairs without me. It's great! Thats about all my news. Not alot today..I guess I will go take a nap before mine and Killian's big mommy son date.

ya it's life

I am going to cram as much as I can in this as fast as I can cause I am tired and know I won't take the time to do this any time soon. So here it is-Wayne went to the ER last Saturday. His feet have been swelling everyday and his chest and one arm have started hurting. So off we went. He spent the night and had all kinds of heart tests done. The Eco came up with a slight heart defect. Nothing that at this time is a big deal and may never be. Wayne will have a stress test done sometime in the near future. In a little more then 2 weeks he will be getting surgery on his nose. We are both really excited for this. I am sure good things will happen because of this for him. We are now looking for a house to BUY! I hate house hunting. It's hard and takes forever. But I found one that I may be interested in. Getting Wayne to be able to see it is another story. It feels pointless to look right now because he is never in town to do a walk through. There are so few houses right now that we can go for (we even upped our price range by 40gs!!). I want this one to work so bad but if it doesn't I know it wasn't meant for us. There will be another somewhere in the future. This isn't the very last house after all! Second grade starts Tuesday for Killian. I am so happy! I hope he will be too. He gets to ride the bus again. He seems to think that's OK. I'm glad cause I really dislike driving him to school. It's just way to crazy! So that's it in a fast nutshell.

it's a real first!

This is the best blog yet-no bad news! We got the last of Killian's labs and there is nothing wrong.It doesn't explain the leg pains but at this point we don't have to worry about tumors or cancer. What a great relief that everything in his blood is clear as well. He is doing better this week by far. From the looks of it last week he was coming off of the one med (is this a repeat? I swear I should read my old blogs)and it was making him all whacked out. God am I glad that's over with. We had no idea that's what was happening. It was a awful week and I wondered if Killian was going to be the way he was acting forever. It wouldn't have been a good life. Bailey is jealous of Killian's pediasure. She likes it as much as he does. Shes mad cause those cases of it aren't for her! I think I could add more but my brain is shutting down. It's after 10 and I haven't gotten to see Wayne. He came home with a migraine before I got home from work and has bee asleep. I spose I get to sleep on the couch.I don't want him to move and I want to read my book. Poor Wayne. o.k I lied maybe that's a bit o bad news. But sooooo close to sooo close!

quick update

All but one lab has come in for Killian. So far all is good. He has been a nightmare this week. I don't feel near as bad about wanting to throttle the kid now. He has been eating really well. the pediasure is helping with calories that he needs. He loves the stuff. This is the second time in his life he has needed it. This poor kid isn't ever going to have to worry about being the tallest in class! Anyway at least I have that good news. Oh yes and we found out today we got approved for a home loan!!! I so can't wait to get the hell outta this rental house. Maybe allot of our health issues will clear up. Well I'm off to put a pillow over Wayne's face..we are watching t.v. while he SNORES.

Time after time

It seems life is going always be hard for my family. Medicly speaking. Monday Wayne had two Dr's apointments and Killian had one. Waynes first was with our family Dr who seems to not do a damned thing for him except up his blood pressure meds everytime. Wayne still has very bad headaches and can't take much more. We don't know why. Blood pressure was part of it. Stress of couse too . But there is something else going on and this Dr is not taking it seriously enough. We are changing Dr's next apointment. The second Dr was a ear nose and throat specailst. He says he can so help Wayne with his nose. He has a 90% succsess rate. Wayne will be able to breathe and stop snoring. He will be able to come back to bed!! The couch has been very hard on him. Nobody wants to sleep on the couch for months on end. Iv'e offered many times for a night but he always turns me down. The surgery will stop the sinus infextions as well. We knew it would but it was nice to hear that from the Dr as well. At least that was a good apointment! Wayne has to have a catscan at the end of the month to get insurance to approve the surgery. Silly expensive..The Dr does have to have that scan to see what hes looking at doing and how messed up my poor hubbys nose is. So awsome for Wayne to be so close to releif! I wish Killians apointment could have gone better. It was awful and I did alot of crying. We took him off one med altogther because he lost to much weight on it. We now think that wasn't the whole reason. Killian had xrys of his legs done for starters becuase they hurt so much and it isn't consistent with growing pains. It turns out that nothing is wrong that shows in the exray. I only know that already because I know the tech that took the pics. I am so releaved that nothing was wrong with his legs or hips. My friend was freakin out because it was so much radation for a little boy to get. She could not sheild any part of Killians body because the hips had to be done as well. She was able to get what she needed in 7 shots instead of 25. She told me there was noway she would do that many on him. Then Killian had his blood drawn. There are about 6 tests that are being done. We won't know those results for awhile. We had to go back today to have more blood drawn because there wasn't enough drawn for one of the tests. It didn't go over well with Killian but he got through it. Since he went off the one med it has been awful with him. It's awful no matter what we seem to do. he has been uncontroble for the last couple days. Very mouthy, disrespectul, can't keep hands to himself, and doesn't listen. Sounds like a normal kid thing huh?? But it's not the same with him right now. It has been so bad I am worried about my job. I have to take both kids with me. he goes out to the hall and screams. I am sure my job is fine but it freaks me out to no end. I don't know what to do. Either i'm crying because he looks like death or frustrated because hes out of control. Compacted with Waynes issues makes for a stressful life. The postive thing about Killian right now is that he has been eating the last two days. Something that was hard to get him to do. He would cry and get so mad for us making him eat meals. He has been playing outside as well, soemthing else I could not get him to do at home. If anyone has a child or friend with adhd please please take the warnings very seriouly about the meds they go on. It almost killed my son. whatever else is wrong with him wasn't helped with it but made something worse. There are other options that aren't stimulants and are also made for ADHD. killian looked so gaunt and colorless. He will always be on the small side but never looked like he does now. children should not have dark circles under their eyes and look like they should be in a wheel chair. My poor boy hurts when he runs to much..and thats not always alot. Did the med make this worse as well?? I hope to find the answer.

ladeda

Wayne was able to make it to Bailey's graduation. Killian was awful like I figured he would be. Wayne's sister and husband took him to Costco afterward for pizza. Killian's choice. So we took Bailey out to eat. She choose Mcdonald's..yuck..She was so stinking cute doing her songs and stuff. It was unfortunate that my stupid camera sucked and I got no good pictures!! At least Wayne got to go and that made me very happy.
Vi is doing fine and at this time isn't getting a pace maker...at this time..this is good cause I am done posting crap.
Wayne didn't get the job in Spokane. It's a bummer but at the same time it fine cause now we don't have to leave his family. I have no one in Spokane. I am happy either way. We are trying at this time to get approved for a home loan. Keep your fingers crossed! I will be amazed really if we get it but will keep trying as many times as needed.
Wayne's health is still very bad. I may have to somehow hire someone to come do outside chores. Wayne doesn't have the energy on the weekends after the long work week to do what needs done. I still have a couch on my back patio that needs taken to the dump, weeds galore, and a yard to be mowed. That the only part I can do if someone starts the mower for me..and that doesn't happen. We are going to end up with all kinds of nasty crawly things.
I guess that about covers it for now. I know I've missed something for sure but this is the best I can do today..my ass is tired!

Here it is June 1st and things will change one way or another by the end of this month. Nothing has changed with Wayne or any of us. We have decided if Wayne does not get the job in Spokane that he has yet to apply for we will start looking to buy a home. I'm sure I've said all this but I never know whats really in my head and whats in my blog! Anyways Vi (my mother) has a weak heart. She may get a pace maker. We will know more about that this month. I'm sure most of you have guessed I have had issues with her for as long as anyone can remember. So to be the one letting "family" know what is going on with her has been a strange role. I considered going and helping her if she has the pace maker put in. I am thinking I won't need to. I don't want to. How awkward!!! So that's it. Not a bunch going on. I did promise I would report something good. I know it's not a whole page but None the less here it is!- Tomorrow is Bailey's preschool graduation. I have no idea what to expect. I am sad Wayne will miss it because of work but the rest of the family will be there :). I hope to report that Killian will behave at this function with no meltdowns! Keep your fingers crossed and wait for pics on fb!

hmmmph

I can't even remember half the stuff that's happened anymore. My brain has become so foggy. I can say that things with Wayne don't seem to be improving. hes supposed to go and get a new mask for his cpap machine because the other one isn't working for him at all. It's to bad. They want to put him on some kind of medicine that can only be taken if he can where the mask all night other wise it can cause death. I don't know what it's for but I don't want him to take it. We are worried he may not get to his nose fixed. it has to be done. He is going to apply for another job June. If he gets the job he can't do the surgery. He is upset about it. and he should be. He may never return to our bed :(. As for me I have my own issues still. I have been very tired. i am going to have blood work done to see if I am low on anything and to make sure my liver and kidneys are working right. I have been so tired I have gone to bed every night this week. I have a feeling tonight will be no exception. This does worry me. We have not been meeting goals we have set for each payday and it upsets me. But there isn't really anything that can be done. Killian was in the ER yesterday. we thought he had a concussion from an injury at school on Monday. They went as far as a CT scan because he was very lethargic. He hardly responded to getting needles and blood draws. The only thing that upset him was when they stood him up to try to get him to pee. It turned out his blood sugar was at 50. It's supposed to at least be 80. He hasn't been eating well cause of his medicine. He was also dehydrated. The CT scan showed a sinus infection. After some IV fluids and glucose he perked right up. we were able to leave around noon. It was such a long morning. Lots of tears for me. I have never seen Killian so weak. He drifted in and out most of the time. Bailey has been doing well. Her own problems are doing better even though she still has a few stomach aches. Life seems to always be hard and it's hard to look on the bright side. I am thankful I now have a car that is nice and runs. I do wish I could ride my bike to work. We don't live far but I can't do it. Gas is so horrible right now! Dip shits that make all us suffer for the $ in their pocket. Thanks Mr. President for helping out the people. I would like to know what good hes actually done. I say vote him out of office. I wonder if that can be done?? Any ways that is the life of Star for now. I promise one day i will write everything good!

I am getting so frustrated. I am tired of feeling more like Wayne's roommate. We don't sleep together..in ANYWAY. The kids drive me insane. Killian is doing great on his meds I do have to report. With out them He is uncontrollably bouncing off the walls. Bailey is Bailey. A little girl who throws BIG fits. Yesterday at work she was so upset at me for leaving her in the daycare room (to go get a mama who had a pee pee girl)the class in the studio (yoga of course) could hear her!! Lucky I hope maybe just the mama I was looking for. GRRRRRRRRRR. I need a small vacation on my own again. I am not really sure whered I'd go. Last year I went to Sand point to visit my Grandma. Now that she is gone I'm not sure what to do. Twin sounds o.k. except that is so far away. We will be going sometime in the near future but I will not get to really visit. Sucha shame, I really miss my friends there. It's so funny that I wanted to move so badly from there and now I just miss my friends so awful much. I did hate Twin Falls though. It felt so "toxic" to me. But I miss our house that was in Kimberly. It doesn't matter that it was to small. I loved it. We had everything painted and a new kitchen along with an additional living room. A shop for Wayne to dink around in. He is now talking about selling all his stuff because he doesn't feel he will ever get to use it again. I tell him no please don't do that someday we will have a house again with a shop. There is noway to replace those very expensive things.
He is hoping this summer to find a job in Spokane (lord I hope I'm not repeating myself a whole bunch!). It is very nice there but the winters suck. There is plenty more to do and much better shopping (like I need that right?). As far as his health I don't know what will happen. I worry about me as well. With the Dr saying again it is possible I have been misdiagnosed it's going to be a long road and I will always need a Dr and they cost allot! Up to $300 a session. With insurance it's just a copay. I'd have to go to the nut house other wise just cause I can't afford to go other wise!
I am sorry to say that the cat is for sure not going with us the next time we move. It has been a hard decision but this week I have made my mind up for sure. It has been a good 7 years with her (minus the barfing she does. She has begun to barf nearly everyday. I have watched this for awhile now but it is getting worse and I just can't listen to it anymore. The many things she has ruined because she throws up on it. Every night being woke up to her barfing or trying. All the sneezing she does. She wheezes and that is sounding worse. I can't afford a vet just yet but as soon as I can she is going..and most likely not coming back with me. I hope the kids will be o.k. she has grown up with Killian. I got her when I was pregnant with him. They are 5 months apart. I after this cat though will NEVER own another one. I always pick bad ones. Keep your fingers crossed for us that our luck will be as good as I hope it will!

just plain out tired

There has been so much I should be writing, or should have. Iv'e been so tired and haven't had the mind to sit and talk about anything.
I got a new car at last! it was so needed. I think I wrote about that. I never read my posts so tend to forget what ive said! So I will tell you I am still loving the car that iv'e had for less then a month.
Waynes health hasn't been the best still. The cpap machine isn't working that great. It lays on his nose making his nose hurt very bad. It doesn't matter what what type of thing he gets for for his mouth they all somehow lay on the nose. Wayne can't handle anything on his nose. He is able to wear it for a few hours but then has to give up on it. It isn't working and Wayne is going to stop wearing it after his next check up. That means we are back to square one. He doesn't care if something happens to him he isn't going to use the cpap machine. I can't make him.
He is back out on the couch. He got sleep in bed for two nights and I ended up on the couch. Wayne is shooting for having his nose fixed. we planned on that anyway. What worries me is he talks about having part of his palet removed to makeroom for his tongue. I doubt the Dr. will agree to this. I sorta hope he does. I can't imagine the pain he would be in.

whoop whoop

This weekend I got a car!! A Pontiac grandprix. I so love it!! It is great to at last have a car of my own. Very happy!
We were sooooo lazy about getting up Saturday morning. I had hoped to get up and out by 10. After the long long week we all wanted to sleep in. Ok well me and Wayne..so we did. It was after noon by the time we left. We stopped at one car lot and looked at one car. I test drove it without Wayne and the kids just the car salesman. It was great so BAM sold!! WE were the first ones to buy a car that day so they dropped the price by allot. It took no time at all and I drove away in my new pretty car. This is making life so much easier again! Have you ever had one car for two people that have two different days? It doesn't work!!! This week I have a crazy ass work schedule so it wouldn't have worked. Granted Wayne is the bread winner. I can not be a let down to my own job and kids. And now I have a car payment I get to make! Work I must work I must. It's all good I like my job!

O.k. Everyone we are going car shopping again this weekend. This one truck thing isn't working what soever. So once again we for sure are going Saturday to look for a car. I hope we find one except the thought alone tires me out.
I am so tired from what has been such a long week. So many Dr's visits and errands. The truck is such a gas hog and all this running around is killing me! I'll not complain though because my brain is to tired to think about such things that annoy me. So Instead I am off to do mindless laundry.

Stupid cars

So this weekend A second tire on the van went flat. Sitting there all by itself. Now Waynes truck got a big ol chip in the windsheild as I was driving down the highway behind a big ol rock truck. He already said about the second flat tire "what the hell did you run over!" ummmmm I haven't because IT'S NOT DRIVABLE. The damned thing would have gone flat before this weekend had I ran over something!!! Come close to me and i'll castrate you >:( for that comment!! Anyway so now that thats been blaimed one me I am waiting for something to be said about the chip in the truck..Anybody need a weenie and to golf balls??
We found a great car this weekend that would have been so nice to have..as we all know there is that one thing we just can't afford the payments on..to bad it had to be this. The payments would have still been good but not good enough for us. We decided on what we would pay and not 1 penny over. Even telling the car sales men this. God there annoying. And by the way asshole my mouth isn't on my boobs!! I had a hoodie on not like they were out there! uggg..Car sales men are a pain..and the next guy who only looks at my husband as if he is the only one buying the car is going to find out what it's like to live under a cactus. Hellooooooo it's me you have to sell to!! The man is just for decoration! ok and his credit score..but still! when a woman walks on the lot with the man the car is most likely going to be either for her or ummmmfor her..so next time look at me first ok?? I will give the first lot we test drove some points in that they weren't so bad except the boob thing..where this is going in the end is no car for star and more thought on hiring a driver.

been forever!

So sorry everyone for not blogging IN forever. I couldn't remember my blog stuff because our computer crashed with all my sites and favorite's. Alot as some of you know has happened.I think I've lost my mind in all thats gone on.
Bailey has had tummy problems which we thought we had fixed. Lately though she is having issues again. We are adding more better foods to her diet. I think it's going well. As of this week we are switching to organic milk. I hate the cost of it!
Wayne now sleeps on the couch because of his snoring. I made him go to the Dr because it was bad! One of us had to sleep on the couch so he decided he would stay out there because other wise I end up out there. He did two sleep studies. He has so many issues. Some from the snoring some He already had. He will getting his nose operated on as well. He has so many sinus infections and can't breathe. we are keeping our fingers crossed this will help some of his issues. Theres just ta many to list. He does have sleep apnea and it's not good. He has whats called rem syndrome. It's rare and if not taken care of is fatal. he never goes into rem sleep. His body uses all it's glucose trying to sleep. he craves lots sugar because of this so he gets up at night and eats tons of crap. He has gained alot of weight and is now working on getting the pounds off. He will be on a cpap machine very soon and will be back in bed where he belongs. I get the job of making sure he is still breathing whenever I get up. Keep your fingers crossed for us!!
Killian was diagnosed with adhd and this has been difficult. He is ever so emotional right now. It is awful.
As for me I am just losing my mind. Nothing new there.
Our family has been through so much this year already. This week (as I know youv'e read) The van is now unusable and we will be at last looking for a car for me this weekend. I am nervous about this and get the bad feeling I won't be getting one. Iwas positive when i wrote the I am lucky post and I truly was that day. It freaks me the hell out thinking that something could have so easly could have happened while Bailey and I were out doing errands. That tire should have given out while we were out on the highway. We were so lucky it went flat (the tire was more rotten then we knew) when the kids and I were leaving work. And very lucky that we had family close by to help. Wayne was out of town. It was a cold night and we couldn't have walked home. I really hope we can get a good car at what we can afford. Again keep your fingers crossed!!

So Thanksgiving kind of bombed. We went to the buffet with the whole family. we all agreed that we won't do that again. The pregnant lady was a dip shit about coming and I felt like kicking her. I should be more understanding about pregnancy hormones but I'm not!The grandparents didn't hardly talk. Wayne was pissed and felt like he was the problem. They didn't really talk to anyone. What made me mad is we paid for the grandma and there was no thank you!And that pretty normal for them both. Wayne had a very bad headache so we were the first ones to leave. Friday our small family had our own Thanksgiving at home and was very yummy.
Wayne has had headaches for a very long time and they are getting very very bad. He is on a couple of meds that we are hoping will help. He hasn't been on them long enough to know this yet. He is supposed to do a sleep lab to but they haven't called so I guess we will have to do the calling ourselves. It makes me so mad that The Dr's office aren't making the appointments when they say they will get it done.
As for me I to am having my issues still. I have been trying all kinds of meds that so far haven't worked. In fact they work opposite!It has been very trying. I just want to feel normal and it doesn't seem like that is in my future for awhile. Lets hope that changes.
Bailey is doing better on her medicine. There are allot less tummy aches. So much so I don't think we will have to switch to something else.
Killian is doing great. Hes the only one not on something! At least there is one healthy person among us!