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I can't even remember half the stuff that's happened anymore. My brain has become so foggy. I can say that things with Wayne don't seem to be improving. hes supposed to go and get a new mask for his cpap machine because the other one isn't working for him at all. It's to bad. They want to put him on some kind of medicine that can only be taken if he can where the mask all night other wise it can cause death. I don't know what it's for but I don't want him to take it. We are worried he may not get to his nose fixed. it has to be done. He is going to apply for another job June. If he gets the job he can't do the surgery. He is upset about it. and he should be. He may never return to our bed :(. As for me I have my own issues still. I have been very tired. i am going to have blood work done to see if I am low on anything and to make sure my liver and kidneys are working right. I have been so tired I have gone to bed every night this week. I have a feeling tonight will be no exception. This does worry me. We have not been meeting goals we have set for each payday and it upsets me. But there isn't really anything that can be done. Killian was in the ER yesterday. we thought he had a concussion from an injury at school on Monday. They went as far as a CT scan because he was very lethargic. He hardly responded to getting needles and blood draws. The only thing that upset him was when they stood him up to try to get him to pee. It turned out his blood sugar was at 50. It's supposed to at least be 80. He hasn't been eating well cause of his medicine. He was also dehydrated. The CT scan showed a sinus infection. After some IV fluids and glucose he perked right up. we were able to leave around noon. It was such a long morning. Lots of tears for me. I have never seen Killian so weak. He drifted in and out most of the time. Bailey has been doing well. Her own problems are doing better even though she still has a few stomach aches. Life seems to always be hard and it's hard to look on the bright side. I am thankful I now have a car that is nice and runs. I do wish I could ride my bike to work. We don't live far but I can't do it. Gas is so horrible right now! Dip shits that make all us suffer for the $ in their pocket. Thanks Mr. President for helping out the people. I would like to know what good hes actually done. I say vote him out of office. I wonder if that can be done?? Any ways that is the life of Star for now. I promise one day i will write everything good!